FINAL PIECE

Today i nearly finished my final piece i've just got to touch it up now. It still looks like crap but what can you do, just make it as gd as it can!!! Figured out a guy that has a crush on me is a total psycho lunatic which is perfectly perfect ( sarcasm ).no one really knows im writing this atm, Its like a diary but i can't keep that anymore cos the 'rents will read that and stop at no lengths to do so ' cos its the only way i can find out whats actually going on in your head' so now i don't keep a diary which sucks cos i do need somewhere to write my feelings down.
I had fun today, me and my friend went in the loo together to hide from ' the puppy dog' it was really funny i was there standin on the loo while she standing there and we were both laughin. i don't get why shes my best mate i'm not really i don't think cos she has so many other mates and one especially but atm i can't stand her we used to b best mates but she's changed when you get into arguements with her she tries to b al superior and philosophical but she really isnt and that frustrates me even more!!!battle of the bands was on monday and this boy was being weird. We're just mates but he does freak me out a tad i'm nt sure i don't think we're any more then mates lol. He's got a g.f and she is pretty.
What do i do? so many emotions and thoughts running through my head it's unbelieveable. i needed a break from coursework and homework etc. cos there is one hell of alot to do and it's not fair tht the top sets are bundled with a lot of work and they dont seem to understand the prioritys of other subjects.
My friend just lied to me i feel gutted, she went to see my ex today and she told me she didnt do anything. She gets really mad about abi and karmen she said she woulda neva do nethin lyk tht to me. i asked her where she was goin. he likes her as more then a mate
thts wot all the questions where about. she lied to me im definately not her best mate hahahaha more fool me for ever believein it. SHe told me she was a lier and i refused to believe it. WHY???? you kno what theres no point i hav no friends atm then may as well hav no life wotsoeva. itl just b perfect little sis big sis and then a sister in law wouldnt it. F u kin perfect!!
i fed up with life im sat here in tears. if i tlk to ne1 they dnt understand cos i neva tell ppl everythin anymore. you kno tht reli clenching feeling in ur thoats and ur stomach i have tht and i can't stop the tears. any one i trust jsut seems to let me dwn.
mum shouting at me again. shes being the mst fu kin unreasonble ****** eva i wish i cud say it i just can't i just hate her atm. and when dad gets dwn well thts just another things aint it. theres never anythings positive form them. I work my f u kin hardest nd it neva pays off i wish i were dead then i would neva see jess agen i would neva see the untrusted friends or exs or family the only bodys on earth worth nethin to me are my dogs and my baby cousin, he doesnt kno what afu ked up world he came in to.

no prince charmin no white horse no perfect worlds

sweetest thing
xxx

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Hi well, i don't really know what to say this is the beginings of a blog that hopefully i will keep to. So whoever is reading this lol this is a totally irrelevant blog. Today was school again. Again i wish i never went the only good part about it was spending some time with my friend without everyone else being there. I love her to pieces but the phrase 'puppy dog' spring to mind with some of her friends. I don't mind them sometimes just a tad frustrating. i'm misunderstood lol... Nearly could kill a girl at school but i could never be capable of that just want her to hurt like she's hurt me. I know i could hurt her i know i could i just can't be bothered to waste my time on a lieing waste of space that she is. Work at school is hard but yeah... got to get over that and deal with it as there is nothing else you can really do.

I've been thinking bout one of my ex's recently. He cheated but i can't get him outta my head.

Science totally freaked me out today tlkin about space, i mean what a wonderful way to make you feel majorly small.

Waiting for my prince charming

Sweetest thing
xxxxx