what best mate?

ok today was interesting i didnt tell her i knew. She lied to my face agen, not really that suprising. We ran away from the puppy dog, i dont mean to b harsh its just its the things she does. Im not gunna speak to my ex. Miss F talked to jess today, not much good that did she doesnt know everythings its hard to say everything it makes me look weak and stupid. I am scared of Miss F not that she's scary loking or anything just cos she hates me, jess did exactly what i thought she would do turn it back round on me. She is a lier and shes taken away my mates lol. there really is no point if i killed myslf she wudnt feel guilty she would just laugh.I wouldnt want tht immature little girl coming to my funeral never. Dad come back down today from work, mums blankin me cos i snapped at her they dnt understand how tired i am i should never get up at the time i do to go to school and do everything i do. I really need to tone myself up i'm gettin to flabby. as if anyone cares!!!!
dad thinks he can come back home and think wot he sees is wot happends all the time im not allowed to sit on the sofa without being classed as lazy if i dnt get up and do work for ova 30 minutes it'll be like your slacking. tbh i dnt giv a fuk. What is the point? i have a brother who doesnt have any regard for me a mum who's blankin me and a dad well says he cares but thts a whole other issue. and guess what they're argueing agen. The world is so selfish. My head hurts and im mega tired. I hate school mates are what mates?!! best mates what are they? trust there is no such thing! trustworthy people no people are worthy of a non existant thing so bewildering. where does tht leave... work ahh work we live all of our childhood worrying about work and exams when later on you just go on to do more work or sit around being spoiled rotten who dont know what hardship is. Maths challenge was crap. p.e was good yet again i dont really hav the guts to go tlk to claire the teacher and trampoling i hate cos it feels like everyone is watching you and all your little mistakes. I don't like that feelin. my heart just jumped thought my dad was gunna shout at me then he's downstairs but you can hear his voice where- ever. english i hate i love th subject not in a pervy way but in other ways i would prefer it to b just me and the teacher cos i dont get on with my class except freddy and gemma etc. but it just doesnt work. I can do well in english i messed up on my summary of romeo and jjuliet in front of the class i kept stammering and gettin parts of the story wrong and i could feel myself blushing. You know when you watch people out of the corner of your eye and they're talking. You can't help but think they're talkin about you thats the bad part. I felt like i was goin on for ages not gettin it right. good enough. but sir made the class give me a round of applause. i don't know why there were so many mistakes and stupid little errors. i tend to pick up on things i shouldnt think to deeply into things i shouldnt but when it comes dwn to it i look so dumb so pathetic. i start to hate myself. The constant assessment of other people on you i hate. its typical. i might go for a shower. mia my ' best mate' isn't tlkin on msn soo.... yeah. the shower helps me forget about things no idea why.

Prince charming lost his way in the never ending universe

Sweetest Thing
xxxxxx